♥ I left my heart behind

wooohooooo

2009-12-27T17:56:07Z

i woke up this morning and saw a text from mandy saying she's warded in hospital so i went to visit her. it's kinda strange cos this is like only the second time we saw each other, the first time was at the rmit bash a few months back. i was surprised and touched by her concern when the breakup happened. she would check on me every now and then, cheering me up and making sure im okay. we were just complete strangers who hang out at the party to dance and drink yet she wasn't those kind of hi-bye clubbing kaki. we had arranged to meetup a few times but missed a few chances. so i thought i had to go visit her, was worried abt her too. luckily she seemed fine and still could talk and laugh. we were yaking away non-stop for 3 hours in her ward admist those sickly elderly. we had to inject some happiness in the depressing room. anyway it was really great to talk and catch up with her. i really hope she'll be fine soon. poor girl spent her xmas in and out of A&E. i hope she won't be spendin her new year in the hospital :(

last minute had free tickets to watch spore idol finals @ indoor stadium with the bf & his two friends. i didnt even watch a single episode this season and had zero clue who are the final two. but im glad i went cos it was quite an experience watching it live and soaking in the high atmosphere. the highlight of the show was actually the performance by this philipines singer who got famous from youtube?? not sure who she is but omg she can Really sing! we had goosebumps listening to her sang live on stage. damn awesome la. anyway, we were all happy with the final result & off we went for supper after that. DIM SUM @ geylang. omg i have been craving for dim sum. but that wasn't very satisfying as the selection was not that much. gotta research on yummy dim sum places soon.

super tired, bedtime soon. must prepare for OT for the next few days =/

ending

2009-12-26T08:24:08Z

christmas this year was good. not especially great, but still good. something feels missing, i dunno whether it's something in me or something around me. does it make a difference? maybe not. i have alot on my mind but i try not to think so much nowadays. i try to live everyday as it is, take whatever is thrown to me in a positive way. although if you ask me whether im really happy now, i dunno how to answer that question.

jus uploaded some pics on fb, i guess outdated ones shall just be left as they are, growing moulds in my laptop. haha.

dinners with my girls were great as usual.

hotel party was fun. i got drunk after 5 bottles of red wine. ha.

xmas dinner~

me likes my handmade flower, so cute with the xmas bear :)

proper update with proper pics soon. hopefully before 2010 is here.

ferris_a_wheel @ 2009-12-19T13:43:00

2009-12-19T05:42:58Z

Last night was fun!! Dinner and drinks with 11 of my colleagues @ Brewerkz. Had a great time laughing and chatting over good food and beers. I love their Golden Ale beer. Lots of crazy photo-taking, but none in my cam cos NO batt. the guys were damn funny la. a pity i coulnt capture their crazy antics in cam and blackmail them. damn. We were assigned to buy gift for a specific person beforehand and i had to buy for someone i dont really know and seems serious. In the end i bot a name card holder. haha boring la. But i got a lovely necklace from leon. hohoho. luckily no rubbish gift. So we were there from 630 all the way till 11+ and they left while i went to meet grace for second round of drinks. i'm not good at drinking as before already =/ maybe i was just too shagged.

Can't wait for next week for more gatherings, good food & drinks!

xoxo.

mashmellows

2009-12-14T15:30:39Z

♥ searching for xmas songs. can 8 songs last us the whole night?

♥ running tap

♥ numerous gifts left on to-buy list

♥ 风云II was quite crappy

♥ starbucks breakfast tmr

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

not 'nuff.

掉了

2009-12-13T05:01:20Z

i didn't go malaysia in the end cos of my stupid stomach. argh. i really wanted to go. even brought baking chocolates & the whole fondue set to make fondue for the kids. and my exchange gift. boo. so im stuck in my village for this weekend. yst i was zhai-ing at home & watched 下一站....幸福. omg im turning to be more cheena. i shall speak ang moh to everyone from now on. shopping later, again! but all for xmas gifts. i was reading becks blog and she got me excited to go daiso-ing. i shall drag my shopping partner of the day to walk from orchard to ps later. hohoho.

Finally took a pic of the beautiful tree!

Me with the girls on our impromtu shopping trip. Made reservations for hotel buffet. Yeay can't wait.
So, what's our dress theme for the dinner?

Inside the tree. So pretty.

The xmas feel still haven't hit me, i dunno why. although im excited about all the gatherings.

xmas is here?

2009-12-06T08:40:22Z

Went to catch New Moon with my colleagues on friday night and i'm SOLD.

cos of those bodies. hahaha. im kidding. But i never thought i will like this movie, didnt even watch the 1st series. Now i cant wait to watch the first part! definately prefer the werewolves compared to the vampires in New Moon. when these 4 guys appeared me and cass were like swooning over them. hehee.

My cousin's twins 1st birthday~

chillax with brandon on a rainy sat afternoon.
i'm glad that despite everything else, we still can be 'jie meis' and share all our thoughts :)

IKEA din din with the bf and kelun. they ordered soo much food -___-
the wings are still as good.

Headed to villa bali after that for some drinks and nua-ing. i like the place with the laid-back feeling.
whenever i go there i will feel like going for a beach getaway.

the first thing i saw on my bed when i woke up today- a ball of white fur, marco baby :)

on one of my 宅女 day:

i painted.

i surfed and munched.

i played with 宅 marco.

i was trapped.

i haven been taking photos everywhere i went, like i used to. i haven been taking self shots, like i loved to.
this xmas season should be the perfect time to start. i must take all the nice lights and trees!

need to start all the xmas shopping too. but im lazy =/ i used to LOVE xmas and will really really look forward to it.
why am i losing interest in things i love??!

next wkend- gathering with family
next next week- dinner with 4inlove
22nd- meetup with powerpuffs
24th/25th- celebration with bf & friends

and then it's new year.

If I were a boy

2009-11-25T16:45:53Z

A corner of my office desk :)

This week I broke my OT record. Yesterday worked till 11pm, today 1030pm. Tmr I'm going to make sure I go off by 9 latest. Luckily jeff sent me home. Tmr mus treat him bubble tea liao :p Just one more day to public holiday = no work. Endure!!

Shopping day with susan was fruitful cos I bought what I needed plus wanted, and not just what I wanted. But we're both thinking abt those lace dresses we saw. Most probably heading back to get them. hohoho.

Spent Sunday lazing and slacking at Holland V.

A perfect way to spend a lazy sunday :)

I can't rem what I want to blog about but it seems kinda important. My brain is half dead already.

Off to bed.

Beyonce- Broken Hearted Girl

2009-11-21T06:08:52Z

Rainy gloomy weather again. I had planned to have a swim when I woke up today but the weather was not on my side. So I continued sleeping in a while then woke up to book movie tickets and enjoyed my laksa. Yums. Yesterday after work I rushed to the cathay to watch Christmas Carol. Just a so-so show with a few funny parts. I'm more looking forward to the movie later- My Girlfriend is An Agent. My friend already watched it some time back on the plane when she went Korea & she said it was super funny but she cant laugh out loud cos she was travelling alone. Hahaa. Then it was Timbre after the movie and I enjoyed my lychee martini and duck pizza while xiao bai enjoyed Erdinger. But the band playing that night was so-so. I'll choose Goodfellas anytime. Maybe next week :)

Finally thought I can try out the 10 dollar ktv at chinatown but my kuku friend booked the wrong outlet so end up all of us went to the partyworld there to sing instead. And it suck totally; from the system to the toilet to the room. SUCK. I want to try out the kbox suite at iluma lei. GIRLS shall we celebrate our xmas there???? Oh ya, I have been eyeing on a long wallet and I think I'm going to get it today so whichever one of you 4inlove who got my xmas wishlist can strike that option out. It will be best if you can get me my last choice on the list. HAHA :p

My friend asked me if I'm contented with my current job. Let's just say as of the current economy and outlook, I am. It's more like 'what other choices do I have' kinda contentment. But I like the people there and my job scope is still alright. Although I am super busy everyday till I only can reply msn about every half hour, hardly have time to take teabreak and toilet breaks, and have to OT everyday. I've been working till 8plus everyday for the past week and I feel so worn out. But still have to make the time and effort to go out with friends cos if I let my tiredness get in the way all the time I will have no social life soon :( Anyway, I hope I can do well in this job. I still have alot to learn and hopefully I will want to stay long there.

Off to watch my xiao tian already. The sun is out. Damn.

I thought you are better than this.

2009-11-17T16:52:37Z

I took my stuffs into my room, locked the door, and cried as much and as hard as I could. I wanted to cry it all out, to let it be the very last time I will cry for you. And after crying till my eyes are swollen, I knew I will be able to do that. I will stop letting my emotions be ruled by you. I will not be upset, hurt, angry, disappointed with you anymore. Frankly speaking, I don't want to get back together. But I needed answers to move on and be friends. But tonight you blew it. Your friends came along too cos you were sending them home on the way??! on the way?! so you didn't want to talk? You said you were too busy to contact me, even after exams?? To think that i was still wondering is it cos you were pissed with me. I was still putting all the blame on myself. 4 weeks ago you told me you missed me alot. 4 weeks ago you told me you can't wait to see me after ur exams. 4 weeks ago you told me you want to leave me so that i will be happier. 4 weeks later you can't wait to pass me the stuffs and go off. 4 weeks later you are going to start afresh with her. 4 weeks later you no longer love me. How is it that your heart can change so fast. I guess I no longer needed any more answers. These 4 weeks I was hanging on and struggling with all the mixed emotions, going back and forth. On some days I will be very strong and happy. On other days I will feel like I don't deserve to be happy.

It's been a rollercoaster ride and after tonight I will get off this ride.

denied.

2009-11-16T17:26:11Z

Caught the movie 2012 after work with susan and weiqiang. exciting movie but damn long. watched till very tired. somemore today OT until 8 and the movie was at 830. had to rush for dinner. work was DAMN busy cos we had 3 days of orders to clear. we are all trying to get use to the new office. too big, too bright, too cold, too open. i cant think of any good points yet.

why is everyone behaving so weirdly tonight????!

suppers are making my face fat. mac breakfast at 5am. bbq stingray + kangkong + chicken wings at 1am. omg.

everyone ard me is falling sick. i better eat more vitamins.

i need more cosmos and golden ale.

Before The Worst

2009-11-13T20:03:45Z

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

♥

This song is just so apt to me. When i saw the lyrics of another song on E's blog, it describes how i feel too. So after asking her who sang it i went to listen to the album and can really 'feel' the above song. emo songs are very in nowadays. haha.

Yst was a fren's birthday and we went to the pub. i didnt drink alot but i still forced myself to puke cos the beer is really disgusting. i still had to help the birthday boy drink -__- luckily im off today so i could drink more and stay longer. if not the next day sure cannot go work. Off today cos of the move and went town to satisfy my starbucks and xiao long bao cravings. haha. after that was to the pub again omg. this is what happens when your fren owns a pub. but tonight the grp of us just drank iced water and green tea. haha. sick of too much alcohol from the day before liao. Just came back from supper actually. chinatown's porridge. yummm. im craving for dou jiang you tiao now. haha.

4am already but im still wide awake.

it's saturday!!

eggcited~

2009-11-04T15:59:00Z

when one shit happens, multiple shits will follow.

that's my thought of the day. this morning at work one big shit dropped on me. then afternoon three small shits dropped on me. no i didn't kena bird shit or whatever real shit. but work-related shitty problems. hahaha. to sum it up, it's a bad day at work except that we went to see our new office and it's not bad. got a great view and it's bigger. moving very very soooooon!

anyway. i forgot what i wan to blog about. wanted to post photos but im lazy. feeling very lazy recently. been wanting to paint my nails but lazy. been wanting to dl new songs but lazy. been wanting to pay bills but lazy. also lazy to go to work =/ i just feel like curling myself at home, snacking on sinful food and watching all the shows. this is bad! and i've been wanting to go jogging but lazy too! i think i must really find someone to exercise with me if not i wont get my butt outta the hse. haha.

im looking forward to this weekend! even though i love impromtu outings, i like to have planned ones to look forward too. it makes time go faster and makes me happy too :) i must make sure tmr is a happy day too!

Christmas is nearing :(((((

2009-11-02T16:09:06Z

Guess what?! I got my 1st xmas present for this year!

Love love love this red bag.

new christmas editions of starbucks mini ornaments!!

add on to my collection from last year's.
soooooo cute ♥

my sis got them for me! hohoho :)

earthquake!

mango sticky rice!

lana cake!

sinful food makes me happy, at least just for that moment.

when im at home, i try to keep myself occupied by watching dramas.

current watch is this show recommended by brandon:

xiao tian is sooooo cute omg.

just finished this recommendation by sherlyn:

i still think he jun xiang is more shuai!

saw this new drama too. xiao zhu is damn kuku la. hahaha.

but it's still showing in tw i think so not all episodes out yet.
in the meantime i can watch the other dramas plus all the english ones which i have not been catching up!

i'm trying hard.......

walking in the downpour

2009-10-31T07:21:19Z

I love strawberries! The left one was given by eric and the right small one i bot it last week. it's a vibrating cushion and it's now on my office chair and i always hug it while working and if i turn on the switch it feels so comfy like a massage chair and i will feel like sleeping! haha!

i'm looking at last night's pics and LOL-ing at those comical ones. it was kinda crazy last night. after knocking off at 8plus my colleagues and i went ktv. first time singing with them and omg they're so high inside. haha we were like dancing and wearing our devil horns cos of halloweeeeeen. then 11 plus HJ called and kept pestering me to leave. 20 mins later derrick already reached suntec to drive me back to his house -__- i was in the midst of singing my must-sing high song: 恋爱ing! so i had to leave earlier to meet the rest. played cards and drank drank drank. i was damn suay but luckily the guys helped me drink. hoho. oh ya weiwei came along too. soooo long nv see her and it was great to see an old fren and catch up with each other. i rem she used to be like a 大姐大 in sch and for some reasons she was protective towards me. hahaha. so we played and played and took stupid photos and before we knew it was very late already. i was feeling quite uncomfortable maybe cos i drank quite alot and straightaway ate chicken wings and satays? haha i dunno. only reached home at 5am =/ been a long time since i went out drinking til so late. but it actually feels good to be crazy and not think about anything else, just for the night. moreover they really know how to cheer me up and take care of me. This week seems like im a free loader cos pple ard me are treating me to good food (and drinks). my big big boss treated us to swensens and i ordered earthquake & ate as much ice cream as i can. another day i met kelvin and susan for dinner after work and he treated us to thai express. and yst my boss treat ktv and my frens treated me to chicken wings and martell and red wine. HAHA. gosh. i thot i will def gain weight but NOOOO i just weighed myself and i actually lost weight. what is wrong with me. i dun wan to be underweight and unhealthy. i mus eat more more more. but not too much lest i turn into a fat girl and no one will want me anymore :( but im skinny now yet no one want me also lei. that means the previous theory doesn't work. okay i dunno what im talking about. i shall go edit photos now. here are a few first :p

im the 'joker' of the night! kept getting joker cards soo suay.

my horns. haha.

kena forfeit still so happy.

the bunch of us :)

mixed

2009-10-23T18:27:58Z

It's one plus am and i'm listening to emo english/chinese songs and chatting rubbish in msn and staring at something once in awhile. once every few minutes actually. just can't help it. work was good today and after knocking off i went to town to get something. the inital plan was to just head home after that. but my friends asked if i wan go ktv. i considered for some time cos the two activities that everyone kept telling me to do-ktv-ing and drinking- are exactly what i'm scared of and dont really feel like doing. what if i sing emo songs and start crying in front of everyone! what if i start drinking and can't control myself! so, despite invitations to go club and get drunk high, i declined that. but i agreed to go sing. while waiting for them to reach town i spent 2 hours shopping alone and i bot a top, a dress, a mask, a massage cushion, a lip gloss & something else. super shiok but broke! i'm not feeling guilty though. it's been a long time since i really shop and buy things i like w/o too many considerations. a girl has to pamper herself at times too and this is exactly what i needed now- retail therapy. can't say this helped totally or much though =/ anyway i shopped until i forgot to eat dinner. hmmmm save on food and spend on clothes. not very wise. but i just didnt feel hungry. in fact after eating abit i actually felt like puking argh. in the end we didnt go ktv cos partyworld was full and kbox was toooo bloody ex. shopped awhile more then chilled out at hk cafe. i really really felt like singing, boooo. thot of other ktv choices; topone dunno how much, illuma too ex, dunno where is cheap chinatown ktv. this suck.

okay this is a boring entry abt how boring my day was but i just suddenly feel like typing random stuffs here and when i start i can really write on and on abt super random stuffs hahaha. i'm thinking what i should do this wkend which is like today and tmr. maybe i should go my fren's hse to rot and chill and talk rubbish but im lazeeee to go out at the same time. now im regretting not bringing back the book i bot from the bookfair at suntec. it's One Fifth Avenue by Candace Bushnell, the author of Sex and the City & Lipstick Jungle. i got the book for just 10 bucks! can't wait to read it but i left it in the office :( oh ya we are moving office next month. luckily i don't have much things at my desk (yet). i hope the new mrt line can be opened sooon and it'll be so much more convenient. we were discussing to dress up for halloween next week and i stupidly came up with the idea of eastern vampire & now im asked to impersonate that -___- i'd rather be a frenchmaid or bunny girl but those are not scary anyway. maybe i'll just be a devilish angel.

hmmm i decided to go jogging in the morning and then go library and read all the chick lits. yeaaaa right. more likely i will end up slacking at home and watching dramas and trying to find new episodes to watch. i seriously dunno where to watch from and cant even rem what was the last episode i watched for gossip girl and oth. argh feel so useless.

i'm craving for big breakfast right now at 2am. ya i took like 45mins to type the above cos i kept switching between windows to read blogs, read emails, type crap in msn and what nots. i'm picturing hashbrown and scrambled egg and sausage and premium coffeee hahaha i think im siao. last sunday i woke up at 10 plus in the morning and craved for mac breakfast so i texted derrick who stayed nearby and was surprised he was very on and half hour later we met up to eat breakfast. then we decided to go ktv and texted the rest to meet. in the end it was a threesome ktv session cos the rest cant make it. after that i went back to my 2nd hangout place to have dinner............ and the rest is history. thinking about it now still feels unreal, like a bad dream that i haven't wake up from. can someone please wake me up?!

past few days happened slow yet fast. everyday i have so many different emotions all mixed together and i had to put on different faces at different times and places. it's so tiring to put on a brave, happy face at work. it's so tiring to put on a 'im ok' face at home. it's so tiring to put on a 'im normal' face when im outside. it's so tiring to put on a 'im strong' face in front of friends. at the end of the day when i'm alone in the shower and on bed, it's so tiring that i just let tears flow. or when im alone in front of my laptop right now while everyone else is aslp. im just not the type who will cry freely in front of family and frens, although i did tear in front of a fren 2 days ago. i just couldn't help it. i think alot everyday and there are so many things i want to say out here but i can't, i won't, i don't know how to.

3 am already i need to get my beauty sleep but for some reasons, i don't bear to go to bed.

back from weeee.

2009-10-13T17:19:58Z

langkawi was fun and not fun. the latter cos it was raining half the time we were there. booo. luckily we still manage to get sunny day for island hopping. pity we didnt get to do real snorkelling and see colorful fishes. pity i didnt get to do parasiling! hopefully will have a chance sooon. damn sian to go back work today esp the morning weather was rainy and shiok to sleep in. but on the other hand im glad i went cos i got good news which made my day :)

going to take some time to edit photos and blog properly abt the trip. shall head to bed now cos tmr's going to be a looong day. meanwhile, here's a shot of me and da:)

wake me up when it ends

2009-10-07T18:03:19Z

Is it October already? One whole year is coming to an end just like that. I wish time can slow down......or rewind....

Met Brandon and his gf for dinner earlier on. They seem really sweet together and she's a nice girl. I'm happy for them =) we should plan for a holiday together! but i promised myself not to go for anymore holiday trips this year cos i can't really afford always spending on this 'hobby'.

Langkaweee shall be my Last trip for this year.............. Please don't rain when we are there!!

Very impromtu dinner/supper with my long long friends. derrick mentioned go eat buffet then i was like OK then next min he said he's driving over and next min i was calling shi min and hongjing but he was playing bball so cant join. And they were very nice to treat me but the next time it's my turn and they already decided crab feast =/

I can't wait for xmas chalet. I can't wait for christmas, although I may be spending it alone.

But it's okay, I still love Christmas :)

ferris_a_wheel @ 2009-10-04T18:23:00

2009-10-04T10:32:23Z

After putting the phone down, I decided alot of things.

And I'm going to keep these in my heart.

I just hope I can keep to these 'promises' I made to myself.

when im bored i blogged randomness

2009-10-04T09:14:46Z

Class gathering where some got drunk. I didnt!

I forgot what we were laughing about, but i like this photo.

Played indian poker and i was pretty suay =/

Forfeit was to drink disgusting mix of vodka, red wine, sprite, lemon tea, coke, chivas.

Powerpuffs and mojojojo went to sentosa for dinner;
where we got lost looking for a little hut

Lunch with colleagues at food fair.
YUMMY.

ferris_a_wheel @ 2009-10-03T13:30:00

2009-10-03T05:37:11Z

Am I just deceiving myself? Living in illusions?

fft

2009-10-02T17:45:21Z

simple vs complicated

2009-10-01T14:45:25Z

I'm turning into a psycho, no thanks to you.

Oh ya, I felt the tremors twice while in office. The first time was scary, lasted 1 min plus and left a nausea feeling. Somemore i'm at 27th floor. Some singaporeans reported seeing buildings swaying literally; some heard their neighbours screaming. Sporeans are just so drama mama.

My life is so plain now. I need some drama too. But not from ur side, thanks.

Everyday at work feels like a battlefield. People think just cos im on msn it meant im free and slacking. it's totally opp. i have to multi task everyday and it seems like i'm getting bad at it. then im also often distracted by other things. after a tiring day at work all i wish are actually very simple things that will cheer me up and give me great comfort. but somehow i find that simple things are the hardest to attain. why is that so?

ferris_a_wheel @ 2009-09-27T23:56:00

2009-09-27T15:57:07Z

I tell myself I have to get used to it, be stronger & more independent.

Say hello to a strong me :)

ferris_a_wheel @ 2009-09-21T17:05:00

2009-09-21T09:13:58Z

This morning I woke up to a video call and moments later to a surprise breakfast delivery :)

Spent half the day researching on holiday..woooohooooo...

No time to blog abt my birthday yet. Just a pic of me on actual day~

haaha.
Off to ktv session now!

p.s. I'm so proud of him for getting high distinctions & distinctions for tests and projects!

Study hard for the next test! I'm goin to sing hard now!!

STOOOOPID!

2009-09-20T16:28:56Z

I withdrew 40 bucks from atm and took my card but forgot to take the cash!!!!!!!! Until when i took out my wallet to pay for movie ticket then realise my wallet is cashlessssss. went back to the atm to check my balance cos i cant rem if the cash was dispensed and whether i really forgot to take. Turns out i really forgot to take OMG. Damn pissed with myself for being so blur and stupid la! And also pissed with the person queuing behind me for being so dishonest! after i withdrew the cash i went to the axs statio beside and the person could have returned me the money! it happened twice before that the person in front of me forgot to take the cash and i very kindly informed the person. where's my goood karma?????! i hope the person will lose his wallet and other valuables!! argh.

2 days ago i nearly lost my valuables too cos i got memory loss. drank alittle too much and i totally forgot some parts of the night. this actually freaks me out. i promise i wont do this again. i must remind myself that im getting allergic to too much alcohol cos alot red spots appeared on my face the next day. if only some sad memories can be forgotten too :(

i went jogging at ecp today and it feels good and bad at same time cos i dun like running and my stamina is damn lousy. haaha. but it feels good to exercise and sweat it out.

going to edit and post the many many photos- jb trip with mum's church, drinking sessions and my birthday!